I have been interested in people’s appearance and how people’s lifestyle is alike. Appearance is the part of the identity of people. When you see someone, you can recognize a little bit about their personalities and their life through their individual appearance.
By the way, what is an identity? How do we develop own identities? This question is the primarily theme of my work.
When I was in a junior high and high school, I had a difficult time. It would sound usual experience as I was going through coming of age. I had been bullied and ignored. I felt it was impossible to have a good relationship with others. However, when I changed my own appearance, people changed their attitude toward me. They started to notice me, and our relationship became better. Since then, I have started to pay attention more about my appearance, even though I was aware of the fashion’s power.
Since I started paying attention to appearance, I saw many different issues and ironies in our society. We struggle and are ashamed by ideal images given by mass media. That affects our lifestyle as well. Furthermore, there are some issues around gender obviously. When we are overly exposed and consume images in the media so much, we become confused about what is real and what is a fake. In result, we become addicted to them.Do those images create hunger for buying more things? Are we living in unknown time under influence by others? There is no limit of questioning, but the truth is always hidden under the beautiful surface.
My process of painting begins with a photographic source taken from various forms of mass media, advertisements, and my self-portrait, and then I recreate image by Photoshop collage. After that, I use projector to trace the outline, and paint exactly the same image that I made via Photoshop. To paint every part of the painting by my hand is kind of the way to take back reality for me.
Although my work’s idea is based on my personal issue, but it is connected to greater problems and irony in society that is always connected individual identities.